My journey to Motherhood
We cannot wait to meet you!
Photo credit: David M. Alvarez
I’ll never forget the morning I saw those two pink lines. It was as if time stopped and I needed to catch my breath. My husband and I planned this pregnancy but it is still quite a shock when it actually happens.
Becoming a mother has always been my dream. I lost my mom when I was 8 years old, and I try to hold on to every memory that I can of her. It seems the older I get the harder this becomes. I close my eyes and I try to imagine what her voice sounded like and what she smelled like. I thank God that I have her old sketching material from when she was a textile designer and old photographs of her. On days that I really miss her I like to wear her jewelry. When I think back on her, I always remember the bond we had. Bath times were special where I would soak in a bubble bath and we would do our nails afterwards. I smile when I think of our silly moments together and her laughter. I miss our frequent museum trips to the American Museum of Natural History where I obsessed over the dinosaur and ocean life exhibits.
My mom was one of a kind and I longed for her during the most important moments in my life. When I was prom dress shopping, getting pinned at my nursing induction ceremony, and most of all when I walked down the aisle to get married. The love that my mother showed me was taken away too soon but it always kept me going. I also thank God for the maternal figures that stepped in to take care of me. I’m praying that the memory of my mother and the examples from the maternal figures in my life will guide me as I embark on this exciting journey. Life can be hard sometimes and we all make mistakes along the way, but I promise to give my all and love hard.
It’s been a while since I’ve made a post and I want to thank you for all the love and support I have received since sharing the news on my social feeds. This is such a special moment in our lives and we wanted to enjoy our privacy and time growing this future amazing little human!
Mama can’t wait to meet you little one!